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2011-08-11T03:21:00.000+08:00

Hello myself.

Since when was the last entry? I really cant remember.

Reading back all the entries about how I met Sean and co. Nostalgic much!

So tempted to revive my blogger now :/

Kbye!

2010-02-14T22:39:00.001+08:00

- MOVED -

http://thats-illypuppet.tumblr.com/

2010-02-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

Don't say it's a conflict, because it's not.

It's just that a whole bunch of friends decided to ignore me,
because I insist of NOT dying my hair black.
Since that's the case, don't bother to argue anymore.
Because I'm okay with it, and I can't help if people doesn't accept me for my hair.

Anyway, had an enjoyable day with Jasmine.
Details on Tumblr.

2010-02-12T12:54:00.000+08:00

Decided to leave things as it is,

because when people tries to pick up glass fragments,

someone is bound to get hurt.

And yes, everyone is being childish here.

INCLUDING me.

2010-02-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

Gaming with Jasmine, followed by Hui Jing.

Oh well, at least I was able to kill time.

And it's 3.30am now, gosh.

I need to sleep already.

Going out to collect passport later.

I mean after I wake up and blah blah blah.

Nights.

2010-02-11T18:35:00.005+08:00

I break the rules, I answer for my own actions.
Don't fucking tell me what to do.
Because you don't know who I'm talking to everyday,
and what I'm doing about this issue.

When I dyed my hair on 11 Nov, nobody said anything.
But when problems come, people start to kpkb.

That's friends? No.
Just a bunch of people who are afraid to get dragged into this matter.

And I am aware of who I caused trouble to.
Especially some sirs and ma'ams to get scoldings because of me.
You think I feel good about it, FUCK NO.

Ms Neo talked to me on bus, and I sort of decided to dye it black.
After going down to training on Tuesday, I decided to dye it black because of the cadets.
But you people are making me change my mind once again.
You people don't deserve to be the reason why I'm going to dye it black.
Fuck no.

And you people claim that I don't understand.
Oh well, because you don't understand neither.

Sorry for wasting everyone's effort.
Especially Anton sir, QX sir, PB sir, Esther ma'am, everyone.
But NOT you all, because you all are the reason why I want to keep my hair brown.

"I know how you're feeling, because I been through it"
---> I am sure, no.

"If you cnt even understand how we feel, im speechless."
---> don't be, because you don't understand me too.

"Oh yes, because i'm hurt."
---> what makes you think i'm not?

"because what you are going through now, you are not bringing it upon yourself.
you are also causing other to be in trouble."
---> so you guys think I enjoy dragging people down? _l_

Yes, you can say everything I've typed is selfish.
Because if you didn't realise, you all are too.

And like I said, initially you guys didn't want me to quit.
Now I've brought so much trouble, you must have really wished that I'd quitted.

Fuck no. I've decided to stay, on my own.
You had enough of me, I had enough of everything too.
Because in this world, everyone is fucking selfish.

2010-02-11T02:16:00.006+08:00

当你被忽略时，你痛恨那种感觉。但你却认为，忽略他人是理所当然的。

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你(A)和 B 是好朋友。你们在 C 的背后说他的闲话。当你们吵架时， B 和 C 变成了好朋友。B 把自己和你(A)说过的话都告诉了 C 。C 讨厌 A，也说了不少 A 的闲话。A 和 B 所说的闲话都变成了 (A) 一个人的错。

B 失去了一个朋友(A)，但也找到了一个朋友(C)。但是对 A 来说，他不只失去了一个朋友，而是失去了信赖。经过这件事后，你认为 A 还会在相信 B 吗？接下来，如果 B 和 C 吵架，同样的事又会发生。

这不就是人类自私的一面吗？

Humans are like that, I'm no exception.
And we tend to have enough room to hear from only one side.
Because by then, we'd be all red.

When people don't fight back, it simply means that they can't be bothered.
And when history repeats like nobody's business, someone has to put an end to it.

Vicious cycle.
What's the rational behind it?

2010-02-11T01:48:00.003+08:00

Don't avoid.

Tell me straight in my face that we're friends no more.

If I were to change my attitude so that you'd accept me,

how many times do i have to change.

And who are you to tell me to change? >:)

2010-02-11T01:16:00.004+08:00

The only reason why I'm typing it here,
is because I can't be bothered to speak with my mouth.

somehow I feel okay with what's happening now.
because I'm not interested to be part of it.
don't hesitate, just go ahead. (:

even though I agreed to spray my hair for events,
I don't really have the urge to attend them anymore.

that's a good thing, I guess.
you all won't need to see my fucking face.

perhaps I don't belong to EVGRCY/glorious/VIP from the start.
I don't like to be forced into doing something I hate.
and so I should not force anyone to accept me as well.

maybe I shall give EVGRCY camp a skip.
I truly believe that I shouldn't be there.
I don't want to be an eyesore.

when I said I wanted to quit, I was told to stay.
and now that I've changed my mind, it's too late to regret.

people come and go.
that's life.

people who cannot accept me, won't affect me.
because I shouldn't be bothered at all.

Ironic uh?

Just wait and see.
:D

2010-02-10T22:02:00.001+08:00

Using both Tumblr and Blogger.
Tumblr has tons of nice pictures! (:

2010-02-10T20:20:00.001+08:00

2010-02-10T20:02:00.001+08:00

Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else.
Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices.
The real test is if someone would rather stay with you,
even though walking away could be so much easier.

2010-02-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

hello blog.

I was really bored, and I labelled my uniform cover with paint marker.

The smell is really strong and awful, really! >.<

Anyhow, it's easier to identify my uniform next time right! :D

Oh well, I cant say that the sad days are over.

But at least, I've thought through one thing.

Friends come and go, that's inevitable.

开心也是过一天，不开心也是过一天。

与其哭哭啼啼，不如带着微笑度过人生吧！

嗯，就这样决定了！

2010-02-10T15:49:00.001+08:00

Gotta be strong. Life's like that.

Hui Jing morning called me, but I slept back.

woke up at 12plus, had lunch and met up with Elim.

thanks for accompanying me to cwp, much appreciated yeahs! (:

bought a formal top at G2000.

after that, went to Mc Donalds for lunch.

But I didnt eat uh, because mummy cooked lunch for me.

walked around, and went home.

Im going to draw a card later, like OMGxzx.

Oh well, bought 3 spare cards actually.

My art "phail" on lah, -laughs!

ahhh, going town tomorrow with Elim.

oh wells. I shall TRY not to spend more than 50 bucks.

It's really hard, like seriously T.T

oh, and we saw Ms Neo on bus 911.

she's on her way to school for NFDC training.

as expected, she asked me to dye my hair black.

sighhh. I don't want to have black hair.

hmm, that's all for now!

BYEBYE <3! :D

2010-02-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

2010-02-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

Independence .

I realised that, it's really true that family is the only one you can truly rely on.
No matter how close friends are, they lead their own life, and I lead my own too.

Anyhow, I went down for EVGRCY training.
I sprayed my hair black okay. Stop assuming that I won't.
I'm sick and tired of you people talking about my hair.
Don't talk behind my back, just like how you don't want others to.

I was quite surprised at the number of cadets that turned up.
And I guess, I've not seen them for a very long time.
Their drills are not as bad as the last time I saw them.
I hope they can continue to work hard for NFDC.

25 days to NFDC 2010.
EVGRCY, all the best!

I believe you guys can do it.
We've done EVGRCY proud, now it's your turn.
GO EVERGREEN RCY, THE "NORTH DISTRICT CHAMPION" TITLE IS OURS.

i'll drop by again, if I can.
I promise I won't let my hair affect anything.
And I wont let others affect me too.
Because EVGRCY is where I belong.

2010-02-08T23:59:00.005+08:00

As much as I want to help my own unit like everyone else, I can't.

Because apparently, my school bans ex-EVGians with dyed hair from entering.

That's a new rule added this year, like what the fuck!(:

Next, nobody informs me about EVGRCY having NFDC training.

Because I have dyed hair, red that faded to bright brown.

And they assume that I won't spray my hair to get in to help the NFDC squad.

How great can that be, when I have no idea what my unit is doing.

It's not like I don't want to help, but I don't even know anything at all.

Know what? I feel good.

I don't have to do anything because I have dyed hair.

And probably my cadets think that im quite useless too.

Because I joined VI but I don't bother to help them.

3 cheers for myself.

useless senior and VI.

[EDITED]

Oh, don't bother.
I'm not worth your(s) time and attention.
Not a teeny weeny bit.

2010-02-08T23:03:00.004+08:00

Have you ever realized that when people say you changed,

it’s just because you’ve stopped living your life their way?

And you only get to live once,
so live it the way you want.

2010-02-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

Don't say you understand me.

Do you know that everytime I have to fake a smile?

Do you know how tough it is to hide my tears?

I'd rather have you all to say "I don't understand you."

Because when you all claim to understand me, I really doubt so.

And I know that I brought all these upon myself.

That's why I refuse to tell anyone about it anymore.

Because somehow, I get a feeling that im a burden to everyone.

I don't care about blogging responsibly anymore.

FML.

2010-02-08T18:16:00.007+08:00

~~I have no choice.~~

I strongly refuse to dye my hair black.

Because to me, it's not a choice at all.

Outsiders tell me to quit.

"Why make your life miserable?"

Parents don't like me to go RC.

They don't voice out, but I can feel it.

"Go RC also don't get money, tsk."

They won't understand, because they're not me.

But I don't understand myself too.

"Why must I sacrifise this and that, just to help?"

If only I was firm enough, I would have quitted before POP.

To be precise, before we went to HQ to collect our uniform.
What to do, when that's how much I love RC.

But take a look at the bigger picture.

They don't care how good you are.

They speak about "leadership by example", and "professionalism".

I know, I'm neither.

And I really want to stop crying, every single day.

It's really tiring.

It feels worst than getting ditched by your other half, seriously.

Enough said.

I don't deserve to be a VI.

2010-02-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday mummy!

And I swear, it's really paiseh to walk around with flowers.

Because everyone will be like "wah boyfriend give, *jealous!" -.-

woke up at 3plus, brush teeth and left home (really)

met Jasmine after she's done with her hair rebonding.

had lunch at Mc Donalds, because KFC was packed.

after lunch, went to XpressFlower to get roses.

bought 11 stalks, with 3 different colours.

costs me $31, but shared cost with brother.

seriously, I dont see why girls go "aww" when they receive roses.

maybe im too boyish, i dont know o.oll

going out for dinner with family later.

woohoo, i love my brother.

LOL random.

BYEBYE!(:

2010-02-08T00:31:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

woohoo. im excited about it.

going to cwp to get 11 roses later!

uhm, and maybe can have lunch there or something.

oh well, see how it goes.

who knows if i'll wake up at 3pm gain -.-

okay, im kidding.

Tell myself,

I HAVE to wake up at 11am LATEST.

Goodnight :D

2010-02-07T14:34:00.002+08:00

Project RICE @ amk - under one particular HDB flat.

I topped up my Ez-link card and realised that,
the minimum value you MUST top up is $10!
Transportation fee is indeed expensive o.oll

after reaching the block, shifted rice out of the storage room.
I didnt know that I could carry 25kg of rice, hahaha.

chatted with the 10/09s as Jasmine and I were pulled into the "distribution party".
They're really hyper, especially Jamie ma'am and Pei Ling ma'am.
I laughed so hard when Khairul sir was "bitting" Jamie ma'am's face,
when Jamie ma'am, Yu Ping ma'am and Celeste ma'am was trying to take a photo.
I swear that some of the ma'ams are REALLY CUTE! :D

Pei Ling ma'am was uber funny.
She kept eyeing on the buffet that was catered to the residents! :X
But the good thing was that, most of the residents went home directly.
As in, they took the rice pack and went home straight, without eating.
So the committee members served us the buffet food, yum yum!

Went to AMK Hub after that, with glorious.
ate ice cream, shop around, etc.
after an hour or so, we decided to head back home.

Everyone is really tired, me too.
I guess I really lack sleep.
I slept less than 5 hours (all together), for the past 2 nights.

Haha, shall get a nap later.
And I need to go and bathe now!
Byebye! (:

[EDITED]

Oh, did I mention that some of the 10/09s said this:
"That one is Ching Yee right? Ching Yee and Boon Ping like compatible leh"
And I remember some of the EVG senior VIs said that too.

They two got the good friend look, or couple look!
Oops, don't kill me seriously.
HAHAHA :D

P/S: I bet you don't know. But I still do, really.

2010-02-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

开心就好？
Naggy, but really appreciated.
148 this time round :l

2010-02-06T19:24:00.004+08:00

Project RICE!
was attached to Sembawang RCY, for this event.
Their YO, Mr Mike, is a really nice guy.

First stop - block 861!
It is near my house, and I didn't know that!
and my group collected the most rice :D

Lunch was next.
Didnt eat anything though, wasn't hungry.
stayed at base to guard the rice with the other VIs.
Oh, I was with Amirah, Qi Jun sir and Khairul sir.

used sms to update my twitter, HAHA.
went for second round of collection at block 858.
again, we came back with the most rice, like really!

Final collection was at block 866.
This time round, not many people opened their doors.
We visited 10 blocks today, YAY!(:

walked back to RP with SembawangRC and MarsilingRC cadets.
I really wish I can be deployed to Sembawang RC.
It's going to be challenging, but that's the point right?

after the cadets left home from RP, the VIs stayed to sieve the rice.
bugs were everywhere, like EWW! :(
went home after that, and i skipped dinner.

If you don't like my attitude, just F* off, seriously.
Don't have to accept me, because im totally fine with it.
It sucks when things like this happen.
And I have not been scolding vulgarities lately, UNTIL TODAY, thanks a lot people.

小气鬼，气包了。

2010-02-05T17:04:00.001+08:00

oh-so-bored !

there's nothing to do lahs.

playing games, games and more games.

back to playing NewBornStory aka old KissMS.

wahaha, waiting for my dmg to uncap.

I know im childish, whatever.

byebye :D

[edited]

Popsicle needs Negative.
HAHA.
<3

2010-02-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

"No, I didnt. Really."

Did I mention, how much I love food?

Or at least, did I mention that I can eat a lot?

Now I'm telling you that.

It's 1.19AM, and I am chewing on CNY snacks.

Let's see what I ate on 5th Feb(the entire day, few hours back)

Spaghetti for lunch @ 4pm(I woke up late, geez)

Fish, Bak Kuteh, Egg, 1 bowl of rice @6.30pm

Half a container of CNY Prawn Rolls DIRECTLY after dinner.

Pineapple Tarts, followed by one red apple.

Ben&Jerry cookies dough ice cream.

CNY Prawn Rolls and Pineapple Tarts(like now)

HAHA.

Look back at the picture and caption,

byebye! :D

2010-02-04T18:01:00.003+08:00

I NEED A JOB! :(

2010-02-04T16:53:00.001+08:00

Guys drink to forget about girls.

Girls drink to think back about the guy.

When guys are in love, they become poor.

When girls are in love they become pretty.

Guys can forget, but can’t forgive.

Girls can forgive but can’t forget.

Guys break up when they feel love from another girl.

Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man.

Guys feel curiosity towards all girls.

Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them.

When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl.

When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy.

But finally, guys wish to be her first love,

girls wish to be his last."

- credits to tumblr-

2010-02-04T04:30:00.000+08:00

~~New blogskin.~~
Edited from one of my oldest blogskins.
Links removed, don't ask why.

P/S: 0429, time for bed.

2010-02-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

Late photos!

All these were taken on 27th January 2010.

Boon Ping & Amir, at Vista Park

Breakfast at Vista Point

Look what Boon Ping is drinking!

Open field behind Christ Church Sec

super HH ~

Amir, Boon Ping, Yu Ying, Jasmine

Our bicycles.

2010-02-03T04:49:00.007+08:00

Regrets-

When adults and students are waking up, I'm only going to sleep.
Oh, and I am going to change blogskin soon.
This blogskin is becoming an eyesore.

Reality, is meant to be harsh.
But thank you so much, for making her stronger every day.
Ignore them. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Even when everyone is going against you, smile and walk away.
They will get their desserts soon enough.
Whoever oppose with her, shall regret their whole life.
The game, had just begun.
Don't blink. Don't waste a second.
For she's powerful.
You'll suffer once you hesitate.

2010-02-03T03:37:00.001+08:00

"If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan.
And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.
- Jim Rohn

"Don't let others change your life, be your own change agent and implement the changes you want! And if an unexpected change occurs in your life, find the positive in it.
- Catherine Pulsifer

It is a good rule in life never to apologize. The right sort of people do not want apologies, and the wrong sort take a mean advantage of them.
- P.G. Wodehouse

The dreams I only thought about, the ones I took no action on, well they are still dreams.
But the ones that I took action on, they are now a reality.
- Catherine Pulsifer

Don't be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Colour-coded, for simple minded people.

2010-02-02T21:52:00.001+08:00

Facade .

"Hachiko: A Dog's Story" is a really good film.

The dog arrives daily at the correct time at the station, to wait for his owner.

Even after the owner dies while away from home,

the dog keeps vigil waiting for his master for nearly a decade.

That's how strong the bond was. That's loyalty.

No doubt, I cried. I believed everyone in the theatre hall cried too.

It's a really good film, watch it if you haven't done so.

I am really interested to visit Shibuya Railroad Station.

I want to see the bronze statue.

Geez, impossible much.

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bought a blue headphone (with radioactive symbol) for brother, as birthday present.

ain't too expensive for a spendthrift like me, laughs.

im really glad that he likes it, he seemed to be quite shock :D

oh wells,

ciaos sweetheart.

P/S: I know that day won't come. Give up already, will you (:

2010-02-02T15:52:00.001+08:00

Bored :((

went to gamehouse.com and downloaded 9 games.
the sad thing is, each game only allows 1 hour of play time.
And I am soooo tempted to get an iTouch, gosh!

hmm, brother's birthday tmr.
Happy Birthday in advance, and I didnt buy anything yet :X
Already have in mind what to get him, but cant find a suitable design.

Oh man, and mummy's birthday in 6 days.
Gonna buy a bouquet of roses!! ((:

[EDIT]
woohoo, going meet Elim for movie later.
Thank god, "Hachiko" is still available at GV!
okay, gotta go and bathe now :D

2010-02-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

Cancelled .

Another day to rot at home, because plans are cancelled.
Not going to ICAC because daddy will bring me there on 12th Feb.
And sushi buffet is postponed, as Yu Ying is re-painting her room.
Urgh, trapped at home once again.

Recently, lost the KHR mood.
Perhaps stop watching it for awhile, haha.
Anyhow, installing my "Cupid Bistro" game now, woohoo.
I think i'll be sick of it soon too, because it has been replayed many times :l

Oh wells,
ciaos (:

2010-02-01T21:27:00.001+08:00

What more do I have to say, to get my message across?

2010-02-01T18:39:00.002+08:00

im BACK! :D

"My Ex" was really horrifying.

But it's a horror film after all, HAHA.

Thanks Mr. Anonymous for paying for our tickets!((:

after that, went shopping at Northpoint.

bought two tops and one dress.

Thanks to the convenience of NETS, I spent $70 at one shot :x

Well done Hwee Hwa, really.

took cab home, and Yu Ying paid for it.

Thanksss again people!

~~Tomorrow going ICAC to collect passport.~~

The MRT fare will be around $2!! :((
Collecting passport on 12th Feb instead.

After that, maybe do some food hunt or something?

HAHA, Hwee Hwa th pig ~

2010-02-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

Boredom kills.

woke up at 11plus by Yu Ying's text.
she asked me out to watch movie, woohoo!
I think we're watching "My Ex-girlfriend" bah.
It's a horror film, kinda excited yet scared :x

Hm, didnt get to meet him last week.
Asked if he want to meet after his school today, but oh well.
Nevermind, I guess I know what to do from now.

Anyhow, going to watch KHR for now.
Text me if you want, bye!

2010-02-01T04:10:00.000+08:00

An old toy.

4.08AM now, just finished watching Episode 84 of KHR.
Gonna take a break for now, shall continue tmr.

Oh, found an old toy to kill my boredom.
Cupid Bistro - Jap computer game, running a restaurant & some fighting.
Will be my 6th time playing it, laughs!

Anyway,
goodnight sweetheart.

2010-01-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

Hello peopleee.

I'm here to upload 3 photos of Bravo!

It was taken on POP, which is yesterday :D

Shot number 1!

Arbishhh! Poor mentor :x

Bravoflies, fly away ~

2010-01-31T17:10:00.001+08:00

I dislike this feeling of rotting at home, FML.
I need to go out, I want to:

01 - Learn roller blading until I get it right.
02 - Go shopping for nice tops and skirts/ GO RETRO!
03 - Lunch buffet at Sakae Sushi.
04 - Find a job.

2010-01-31T15:40:00.001+08:00

Ez link card expires today!
AND GUESS WHAT:

Adult MRT from Woodlands to Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station = $1.62 !
MUMMY I WANNA GET CONCESSION CARD PLEASE -.-

2010-01-31T01:19:00.001+08:00

VIP 11/10 POP.

Yesss, we're officially Volunteer Instructors now! :D
Happy? Definitely.

not going to talk much into the details.
words cant describe that feeling, really.
& when the lightsticks landed, it looks so romantic!!

was disappointed that I didnt manage to take a photo with Qing Xiang sir!
Xin Yan and I tried to gather the SYF08 people, but failed.
Each platoon had their own bonding session with their mentors.
hm, I wonder when will be the next full uniform event for us!

OH! and a big THANK YOU to many people.
POP Committee, 10/09s that helped, people that witnessed our POP, EVERYONE.
Thank you so so much for making our POP a success.

That's all for this post.
Love you guys, and girls! (:

2010-01-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

There was no trust to begin with.

2010-01-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

- Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn -

Alright, just finished preparing my stuff for tmr's POP.

Geez ~ Feeling a bit nervous about it!

But then, it'd be rehearsal followed by briefing on Flag Day followed by POP itself.

Which means im going to spend my day from 9am to 10pm or so at the campsite!

DANG, cant watch hitman reborn :((

& I am totally not excited about wearing Full Uniform.

2010-01-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

Geez.
I really wish there's an replica of me in this world.
And only if the "two" of us are good friends, that'd be cool.

Okay, I guess I'm just talking nonsense.
I am feeling better already, yippee!
And I feel like eating Mc Donalds now, really.

Ohhh, I ate tons of junk food today.
Chips . Ice Cream . Chocolate . Bubblegum . Fried food .

Know what, something is gonna come real soon.
F-A-T-S! ((:

2010-01-28T13:57:00.001+08:00

Thursday . Friday . Saturday . Sunday .

woohoo. another boring day at home.
seems like I need to find something to do, not at home.
I cant stand this boredom. someone get me out please.

staying at home means titbits and tubs of ice cream.
staying at home means lappy and Hitman Reborn.
staying at home means no life, seriously!

I ~~need~~WANT to get out of my house.
Movie . Pool . Ice skating . Cycling . Anything.

Oh, and I need to plan 4 ITG outing after RC POP.
Dang dang dang, it's always me.

And I forgotten they're studying Electronics ..

2010-01-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

im sickkk!
say hello to flu and fever (:

& right now,
im eating my Famous Amos cookies.
tsk tsk tsk, im so dead.

2010-01-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

Meet up. Disappointment . Postings . Disappointment .

woke up at 5plus today, went to Marsiling to find Amir.
shall skip the details because I was really fucked up, like who in my situation wouldn't?
cycled with Amir to Vista Park to meet Boon Ping (sry for making you wait!)

Mummy said this before I left home - "check if the bike got brake hor."
& Amir said this after passing me a bike - "this bike only got ONE (back) brake."
then I was like, HAHA FUNNY!

Yu Ying and Jasmine joined us later.
the 5 of us went to Vista Point for breakfast - Roti Prata!
and Boon Ping was so smart to think of a way to lock FOUR bikes together with ONE chain!

after that, cycled to the open area behind Christ Church Sec.
That place is super big, and there wasn't much insects around.
hm, next time can ton at that place, or go star gazing <3!

slacked, chatted, took photos, blah blah blah.
went back to Amir's house to return bike, then met with Jasmine and Yu Ying again.
had our lunch at 888 KFC, then home-d after that.

Big congratulations to Gene for getting into Tourism and Hospitality @ TP!
Even though I know you don't read my blog, HAHA redundant me.
And also Jasmine for getting into Accountancy, *whistles* :D

Oh, and I can go to school with Boon Ping and Hui Jing!
FYI people, I am enrolled into Electronic and Computer Engineering @ Ngee Ann Poly.
That's all for now.

2010-01-27T01:37:00.005+08:00

I want to text you every single minute. I want my SMS counter to hit at least 10k per month again. I want to watch movies with you. I want to play pool with you at Parklane even though Kpool was cheaper because we used to play a lot at Parklane as I was not yet 16 so I couldn't enter Kpool. I want to take bus 858/969/965 to Khatib and change to bus 855 to the bus stop outside your Condo again just to wait for you to come down and meet me for just one minute. I want to bake another cake for you on your birthday. I want to slack with you at the playground near Sean's house. I want to hear your voice every night until I fall asleep or until you decide to end the call so that you can get enough rest for next day's school. I want to meet you during your lunch break at Yishun Northpoint Mc Donalds at 12noon and then take bus home myself at 1pm. I want to hear you tell me about your day, be it good or bad. I want to see photos in your iPhone, even though girls always text you halfway and I'll get uber sad but still asks you to reply the girl's message, before that person gets sad that you're ignoring her. I want to poke you, because the way you try to stop me from tickling you is uber cute. I want to tell you ghost stories, because I know you're afriad. I want to shout "KAZHUA" so you'll jump and run ahead of me. I want to hear you play Eudemon and tell me that your Eudemon egg hatched into a powerful/rare King. I want to hear you tell me that you're bored so I'll find ways to entertain you. I want to open a storybook and type it into text messages so you can read them on train, even though it takes over 50 text messages and more than a hour to type them into my phone. I want to be a paparazzi and shoot photos and videos of you when we're playing pool together with Sean and Elim. I want to know everything about you. But I know, you won't want to know everything that's happening in my life. I have so much things to tell you, but it's hard because you don't see me like before. And I wished that you read my blog daily, but I guessed that you won't bother to. Because I know, things had changed for you. And for me, I'm still stuck at where I was, or maybe I don't even know where I am standing now. If only time could rewind back to 20th October 2009, I would have chose to not send you that text. And then things wouldn't become so complicated for me. And when you said you forgotten why you got angry with me during my VIP Camp and ignore me ever since then, I felt so empty. How can you forget the reason why you decided to ignore me for so long. I could even remember what you felt that I did wrong, and what you said in return. I remember crying to sleep during VIP Camp when I texted you about how bad my day was and you didnt seem to bother. Sigh. Woman like to think a lot, or is it just me?

2010-01-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

Food . Happiness . Fats . Unhappiness .

met up with Yu Ying, Ching Yee and Royston.
took train to Somerset MRT Station, and bought Famous Amos cookie.
Oh yah, I was texting Yu Ying on train because didnt want to stop my music.

Yang Tse came, and we went to Concorde Shopping Mall's pool centre.
was texting Rayner, anddd *poof* --- Memories :((

went to Plaza Sing for dinner after that at KFC.
Organising Team meeting was conducting, blah blah blah.
proceeded to RC HQ for Project R.I.C.E briefing.

after briefing, went to buy pancakes at Jollibean.
then, went to RC HQ Office with Ching Yee to print some POP Stuff.
took more than an hour there, to edit and print everything.
Mr Richard(Taskforce Chairperson) talked to me and Royston.
I swear he is uber cool okay! Come on people, join Taskforce! :D

after everything, went to MRT Station with Ching Yee.
Yu Ying, Jasmine and Amir were nice to wait for us, arigatou!
shared Britain battered fish from Chirpy with Yu Ying, then home-d.
and right now, sitting in front of my lappy typing all this.

Oh yah, we will know our school postings tmr!
so Yu Ying, Jasmine, Ching Yee, Amir, Boon Ping and I decided to meet in the morning!
we will be going for cycling at 7am, so I have to wake up at 5.30am!
woohoo, cant wait for posting results, *cross fingers!!* ((:

drinking chocolate milk now, fattening!
BYEEE ~

2010-01-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

Movie . Dinner . Fun .
watched "Tooth Fairy" with Yang Tse because his friend fly us aeroplane!
we caught it in The Grand Theatre, and that theatre hall super chio lahs.
I mean, those lightings were perfect! Romantic!

The movie was quite nice I guess.
& Chase Ellison was uber handsome (although he's a young kid)
somehow, he looked a lil like JUSTIN BIEBER! <3 (:

trained to Yishun, met up with Ching Yee and Jun Jie sir.
Next came Xin Yan, Boon Ping and Qing Xiang sir.
all of us walked to Chong Pang, and Amir joined us.
Had dinner, then went to Mc Donalds to slack.

talked about SYFOC'08, VI journey, girls and guys, etc.
Boon Ping and Xin Yan left first, while the rest stayed until 10.30pm.
took bus 858 back, alighted at Yu Ying's stop as usual.
I have this habit of walking home from Yu Ying's stop instead of Jasmine's.
Even though Jasmine's stop will only take me 5 mins. haha, im weird.

Ohh, and Rayner is not free to watch movie with me due to studies.
was quite disappointed, even though I told him that studies is more important to him this year.
sighhh. nevermind hweehwa, try harder next time! gambatteh! (:

P/S: JUSTIN BIEBER is hawtxzx T.T

[edit: 1.38AM]
I made someone angry on MSN just now.
damn it, me and my attitude again.
feeling guilty about it, fishhh! -.-

2010-01-25T00:09:00.001+08:00

If giving excuses or pushing responsibilites
makes you feel better, go ahead.

2010-01-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

another day wasted, seriously.

oh well, anyway I was watching Hitman Reborn the whole afternoon.
Youtube is lagging on my lappy, due to low internet speed.
currently watching Episode 14.

tomorrow, going out for movie with Yang Tse and his friend.
we're going to watch Tooth Fairy!
after that will be dinner with Qing Xiang sir, Xin Yan, Ching Yee and Amir.

Look forward to it.
At least I won't be at home (:

2010-01-24T16:05:00.003+08:00

Thanks for spoiling my mood.
- & dont claim that you people understand, when it's obvious that you don't -

2010-01-24T01:42:00.004+08:00

when the whole world's asleep.
will try to keep this post as short as possible.

woke up at 5plus to bathe and prepare for FD Accreds & POP Rehearsal.
thanksss mummy for the breakfast, and helping me to spray my hair black.
bumped into Evonne ma'am at bus stop, and Jasmine was like chua tio.
I swear the scene was super funny!

nothing much for the FD part, except that we have to shout commands.
my squad was released for lunch first, while ChingYee's squad was still accreditating.
we wanted to tell her to meet us at the coffee shop later, so Yu Ying said this:
"weeeee gooooo kopitiaaaam eeeeeat ahhhhh ~" in a draggy manner.
The whole of ChingYee's squad heard and were like, trying hard to "ceg" their smile, LOL.

after lunch, had lots of rehearsals under the BIG HOT SUN.
I could barely open my eyes, and it was scorching hot!
called Mac delivery for dinner, then continued rehearsals with court shoes.

seriously, I totally disagree with practising the drills in full uniform.
the actual POP is next week, what if we dirty our uniform?
I don't care if we cant get use to the "uniform feeling", that's totally not important.
If you want, you can wear it and walk around at home until you get used to it -.- zzz!

anyway, thank god that we didnt have to wear it.
even if we were to wear it, I wont (over my dead body!)
im just trying to be honest okay, stop reading if you find everything F* up.

Lastly, thanks a lot to Francesca for helping to put the cap badge!

2010-01-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

Shopping . Money . Job .

Had lunch at cwp kfc, then accompanied the girls to get their court shoes.
Jasmine brought up a very good question, how to "ke-belakang puseng" with court shoes ._.
after that, went to Popular to get uniform rings.
[$4.50 spent so far]

after that, Ching Yee and I went to Orchard.
First stop - Far East Plaza for bag hunting.
bought a nice leather bag there.

was struggling between 2 bags, both were nice lahs! :(
bought bubbletea on the way back to MRT Station.
[$31.60 spent so far]

headed to Etude House, and bought stuff there.
nail polish and skin care products!
[$67.30 spent so far]

went to Somerset 313 mall, bought an owl necklace at Forever21.
after that, spent money at The Face Shop on nail polish.
[$81.20 spent so far]

took MRT back to Woodlands, then walked home.
ohh! and I withdrew almost $300 from my bank account this week, damn!
$8 to be paid tomorrow, and $21 on POP for VI Shirt.
URGHHH ~ Fly, money fly!

I need to get a job, seriously.
My pool of money is drying up soon.
Lalalas, anyone got job intro? T.T

2010-01-21T20:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY is the word!(:
went causeway point(cwp in short) with Elim.
bought deodorant, 2 tubs of Ben&Jerry icecream, and 2 cartons of milk.
Everything cost me around $32, goodbye money :(

in case you're wonder why I bought all those food.
I wanted to get Anderson's icecream but they didnt have cookies&cream flavour.
and as for the milk, i want to grow taller!
dont laugh, seriously T.T

messaged Rayner to ask if he want to meet me sometime next week.
and he actually said that he intended to ask me about it too.
sweet or what? hahaha, miss him lots! >.<

hm, that's all for now.
meeting the girls tomorrow for some shopping.
& I wanna get a new bag (:

2010-01-21T16:35:00.000+08:00

cant believe I woke up at 3.30pm today!
and I have that kind of "sleep too much" feeling now (:

today is another day with nothing to do.
I wish I can get people to watch movie with me as and when I want to.
and go on a shopping trip and "shop til you drop", literally.
blah blah blah, boringgg life! :(

anyway, currently doing tons of facebook quizes.
I am really super bored now.

anyone wants to have supper with me tonight?

2010-01-21T00:19:00.002+08:00

Read up about different types of piercings on Wikipedia.
wanted to get a tongue piercing but don't have the gut.
I guess it's a good thing after all ._.

2010-01-20T23:54:00.003+08:00

I loveee Red Cross to th max!(:

Met glorious, and went to HQ to help out for Flag Day Prep.
Yu Ying gave me a portable speaker, thanksss!
did the same stuff as yesterday, but it was fun lah.

had lunch at Plaza Sing, then bought movie tickets.

went back to HQ and helped until 6pm.
bought chips and went for movie with Ching Yee, Jasmine, Yu Ying, Clive and Xin Yan.
watched "Spy Next Door" and it was quite worth it.

The movie was funny (the genre is comedy, duh!)
And Lucas Till is so handsome! FYI he acted as Larry in the movie.
Google-d about him, and found out that he's only 20 this year, OMG!
Not as if he will become my friend, let alone boyfriend :(

took train home, and Clive said something funny.
Let's say one motorbike can delivery 4 pizzas, how many motorbikes will arrive at campsite?
INTERESTING, SERIOUSLY! :D

hmmmmmm, let's see.
currently crazy over Lady GaGa, Justin Bieber, and Lucas Till {!}
oh gosh, im insaneee ~

uhm, and i have so much things i want to do! :(
anyway, buhbye!

2010-01-19T23:46:00.001+08:00

WARNING, long post ahead!

daddy drove me to MRT station this morning, thankssss!
met Gene and Yang Tse at Dhoby Ghaut for breakfast @ Mac.
went to meet Ching Yee and Jasmine after that, then headed to RC HQ.

Tore down old labels from the tins, and replaced with new labels.
Yang Tse, Jasmine and I were competing to see who tears the most number of tins!
arranged and packed the tins according to serial number.

went for lunch at Plaza Sing.
ate KFC and then back to HQ for more work!
I slacked a lot, as you can see from the number of pictures I took! :x

Jasmine, Ching Yee and I were approached by VDD Kevin sir to help Sembawang RCY.
I can say that it will not be easy, but we are willing to give it a try.
What's more, it will only be until the end of May.
I certainly hope that we will be able to help them in one way or another! (:

after all the work at RC HQ, went to Plaza Sing once again for dinner.
ate Burger King with Jasmine, Ching Yee, Clive, Xin Yan, Nicholas and Si Ying.

The guys were talking about Early Childhood Education.
Actually more of baby boom issues, which is totally not related to the poly course!
They mentioned about 5 generations living under one roof, LMAO!
I didnt talk much, but laughed a lot.

Wanted to play cards, but we were in RC-based shirts so we scrapped off that idea.
didnt know that we can actually turn up in home attire, sadded!

Might be catching a movie tomorrow with the girls.
And really glad that everything is back to normal once again! (:

2010-01-18T16:29:00.001+08:00

Exactly two months ago, I took this photo at AMK Hub Mc Donalds.
And so what happened two months later?
No more red hair, all thanks to black hair sprays.

This feeling is so fucked up.
And I am told to spray my hair AGAIN.

IF my hair fades to black, i am so going to dye it RED.
Mark my words.

[EDIT]
OHHH, did I mention who this post is for?
I hope you know im refering to you.
But on the second thought, only those GUILTY ONES know who you are.
I didnt mention names right, LOSERS.

2010-01-18T01:04:00.001+08:00

When everything bad comes at the same time, what will you do?
Sometimes, people either give in or leave things the way it is.

And when the best of best friends dont understand,
the term "best friend" no longer holds the same meaning.

Humans are selfish, and I am no exception.
People always think they're right, and that others are wrong.
Not because they're truly right, but because they dont want to lose face or give in.
Often, I find myself to be like that too.

But when everyone thinks that way,
"compromise" and "mutual understanding" is totally redundant.
And I believe that everything is out there for a reason.

Hm.
Think about it.
It's your/our/their choice.

2010-01-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

Finally back home, and feeling quite tired.
I guess VIP Outing wasn't really a success nor much of a failure.

when we got there, most of us wanted to do roller blading.
the funny thing is that out of almost 20 of us, only 5 know how to roller blade.
I think I really suck at it, didnt manage to roller blade on my own even after TWO hours.
and I went OHMYGAWD and AHHHHHH-ing all the way, sorry -.-!

after roller blading, went to Mc Cafe and bought chocolate drink.
the aircon feeling soooooo nice lah.

after that, played Snap Jack with ChingYee, Jasmine, BoonPing, YangTse and Derek sir.

FUN is the word to describe!

and I swear that Derek sir look super funny when we played cards.

Oh well, GENERATION GAP! (my favourite line to him, although no link at all)

slack and rest, then people went to cycle.
Jasmine, ChingYee and I gave it a miss.
so the remaining few of us sat down to play cards.

This time, we were playing "STRESS!"
Chye Keong sir was super pro at it, urgh!
I won everyone EXCEPT him, and when I play with him I literally stun there.
He has a pair of godly machine hands, LOL! :D

Hadi sir and Clement sir came near evening.
when the rest came back, we all took a group photo.
had POP discussion after that, in the dark.
I didnt really pay attention, and I went off to play candle with Jasmine.

Aftermath, the whole group went to Parkway Parade for late dinner.
took a long bus ride home, and Lady GaGa's songs accompanied me <3
LADY GAGA ROCKS, at least in MY opinion! (:

2010-01-17T02:07:00.000+08:00

This is stupid, really.

will only store my HAPPY memories here,
because I have to blog responsibily.

will update more on my private blog.
since my life is so screwed, for the same old reason.

2010-01-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

SPELL F-U-N! ((:

collected uniform at Red Cross HQ today.
shall skip the details, because there's nothing much to elaborate.

MRT to Yew Tee with CY, Jas, Cel, Amir, Irfan & YT.
bought a lot of food, and went off to Irfan's house.
That's where all the fun began!

we mix, we boil, we mash, we stir ~
after all the mess, we went to Mc Donalds for later dinner/supper.
It was around 10pm by then.

Really enjoyed all the fun.
shall have more clique outings soon!
& im trying hard to pronounce Irfan's name as Eyr-funnn >.<

P/S: hope tmr will be a successful outing!
P/S/S: the people will be coming to my house at 8am!

2010-01-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

Im a lousy friend.

2010-01-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

“Cinderella walked on broken glass. Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass. Belle fell in love with a hideous beast. Pocahontas risked her life for a feast.Jasmine married a common thief. Mulan was given disbelief. Ariel walked on land for love and life. Snow White barely escaped a knife. It was all about blood, sweat, and tears, because love means facing your biggest fears.”

2010-01-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

YOYO, im back!
The few hours spent with Hui Jing was like HAHAHA! \m/
I guess im really me when im with her (:

watched "Did you hear about the Morgans" at cwp.
The movie was average, and I really liked the female actress!
ate dinner, then bought a formal top at G2000.
I guess it was quite a bargain, to get a formal top for like $23.
look forward to another outing with her.

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will be collecting VI Uniform tomorrow! \m/
quite excited about it, or rather, very excited about it!
goodbye to cadet uniform, hello to VI uniform!

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I feel like screaming out loud.
I feel like crying until my tears form a river.
I feel so hopeless, useless, and depressed!

As a friend, I cant do anything.
Useless is the perfect word here, really.

2010-01-15T16:33:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH.
going out for movie with ah chongggg! \m/

2010-01-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

Hello people.
blogging once again, using my desktop.
hahaha, because it's faster and I need to do something on JPSAE.

anyhow, I submitted JPSAE for Early Childhood Education/Studies.
please pray for me to be shortlisted! *twists*
super scared, hope they will consider me! :(

next, eating my lunch now.
this is the first time eating duck noodle (no joke)
okayyy, i feel so sua gu lahs!
don't laugh hor i tell you! ._.

hmm. will update later bah.
quite sian because i have no programme for today.
another day to rot and stalk people on facebook <3

with love,
hweehwa.

2010-01-14T23:43:00.001+08:00

Time to fill in the details (:

went to TP with Elim & Yang Tse.
Derek sir brought us around the campus.
Found a table in the canteen and we sat down to chat.

went for the Early Childhood Studies(ECS) talk.
I really x3 want to get into that course T.T
but it's quite hard even though it has no COP.
because my results are really bad, that explains everything.
and all the best to everyone for their JAE (:

took bus back to causeway point, and dined with Elim.
bought hairspray for the very first time, to style my hair.
I forgot to mention, I went for a haircut today.

It looks quite puffy at the top, and my fringe is like bangs.
actually, I can choose to comb it as bangs or slant.
but for now, i think bangs looks nicer with this hairstyle.

went over to Civic Macs for TCS.
Spent quite a long time before I convinced myself to join them.
For the same reason, I dislike how people talking about my hair.

I knew it would happen, but I tried really hard to control my temper.
For one reason or another, that feeling really sucks!
I guess I need some anger management talks -.-

Anyhow, I am quite contented with my current hairstyle.
Even though some said it's almost the same, but to me it's not.
Hmm, need to get my butt down to ICAC to collect my passport.

P/S: Geneeeee, plan the outing pleaseeeee! (even though you're not reading, LOL -.-)

2010-01-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

Opportunities are not only given, but created.
This is what I strongly believe in.

Before I continue my post, I must say something.
The desktop keyboard feel so weird and bulky and noisy!
I think it's because I am totally used to my lappy's flat keyboard already :D

And like what I mentioned before, I am going to TP today.
Going to openhouses wasn't what I expected myself to be doing.
I've already submitted my JAE application actually.
But now im deciding whether to apply for JPSAE.

Oh well, this is more stressful than taking exams!
Anyhow, will be meeting Yu Ying for lunch and haircut.

Still deciding whether to cut away my "long but not so long" hair.
I want a new hairstyle, but im totally afraid to try.
what if I look bad after that, so many hypotheticals.
I wouldn't want to imagine for the worst .__.

Hm, shall post here for now.

& did I mention how much I wanted to get scene hair after O's,
and how i decided to stay clear from that idea? -laughs!

2010-01-14T01:44:00.001+08:00

Was everything planned beforehand?
I've got no idea.

I just don't like what is happening now.
Am I responsible for all these shit, like hello?

I don't feel sympathetic.
I feel more of like, guilty?

But wait, I shouldn't.
*rolls eyes*

2010-01-13T22:28:00.001+08:00

Hello peopleee!

I am getting so sick of staying at home.

How I wish I can find people to go out with every single day! :(

Currently feel like going out for supper.

But you know, everyone think it's too late to go out.

Hoping for some positive replies from the girls, but no.

It's okay, I know there wont be even 20% hope for that.

Anyway, will be going down to Temasek Polytechnic tomorrow.

I hope they will consider me for Early Childhood Education, really!

Not intending to join GLORIOUS and company for TCS after that.

Hmm, no plans for Friday yet.

I want to learn roller blading, anyone want go with me?

But I think I'll never be able to balance on the skates.

Oh well, forget about it (x

That's all for now.

Will again update tomorrow.

P/S: I feel so useless, not able to help him/her/them.

2010-01-13T15:26:00.001+08:00

Another boring day at home.
Tmr making my way down to TP with Elim @ 4PM.
Need to talk to someone regarding Early Childhood Education.

I hope I can get into that course, or Social Sciences.
Social work seems fun, that is totally me.
The rest of my choices are engineering, and Nursing to be last.

Somehow, I got a feeling I'll get into Nursing!! :(
Should I choose NYP or NP for Nursing? sighhhh.

2010-01-13T02:16:00.002+08:00

For the first time, I care more for studies than Red Cross.

2010-01-12T22:54:00.001+08:00

Oh well, finally back home.

took cab to Toa Payoh to find YangTse.
It was $15 but I think it's worth it, because it's way faster.
went to Catholic JC with him.

Eugene sir brought us around. George sir was there too.
Both of them are from VIP 10/09 btw.
They are quite friendly I guess, haha.

went to city hall after Catholic JC open house.
bought "This is my story" by Kasandra Kong.
Im one-third through it, and it's a good book.
trained back to somerset with YangTse to meet ChingYee.

ate Ice Kachang at Koufu, then waited for Jerald to come.
watched "Vampire Assistant" or whatever the movie name.
It was nice until the abrupt ending spoils it all ._.

After the movie, we parted with the guys.
Had Long John Silver for dinner, then went shopping.
Bought something at Cotton On.

And i spent way too much money today!
Shall stay at home more and use lappy instead.

I just realised, if the school doesnt allow me to use CCA points,
my score is actually 20 not 18, using ELR2B2 I mean.
How depressing! Shall opt to go RP instead of SP (:

To clear some misunderstandings,
I am not in a relationship and stop asking me anything on MSN!
And to some FB stalkers, no way im giving you my number when I dont know you! -.-

2010-01-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hello people.
Still deciding what course to go T.T

Going out soon, to meet Yang Tse.
He ask me accompany him go CJC open house.
See, im such a good friend *BHB*

Anyway, will be catching a movie with him, Ching Yee & Jerald.
Have not decided what movie, but hope it will be a good one.
Shall update when I reach home.

Take care readers.

2010-01-11T19:38:00.001+08:00

Will I not learn to work hard, until the day I experience failure?

Yes, I got back my O Level results today.
Quite disappointed to get B4 for English.
I expected an A2, but nevermind it's finally over! (:

Unexpectedly, I got B3 for Math.
Mrs Lee came to look at my results.
I think she expected a C6 or D7, honestly.

In short, I got 18 points for L1R4 by luck.
Ahhhh, this links back to my title of this post

Hm, GLORIOUS scored well for their O's.
Anyhow, let's talk about our trip to cwp.

- ♥ -

ChingYee, YuYing, Jasmine, Celeste, Amir, BoonPing and I went to cwp.
Yang Tse came later, while ChingYee & I went down to Macs.
We bumped into Irfan! OMG so cool.
And so we asked him to join us for Boon Ping's birthday celebration.

Actually, it wasn't really a celebration.
We bought him a slice of Oreo Cheesecake from Macs.
And we sat down at Foodcourt to chitchat until around 6pm.

Went home after that.
Thinking of what course to take for Poly life.
Sigh, time to kill some brain cells!

P/S: I wont think of quitting alr. I will prove them wrong. I know I can, and I will.

2010-01-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

Sick, mentally.

2 days ago, cried because of some issues.
ytd night, cried because of the same issue.
tomorrow, will I cry because of my O's results?

actually, I doubt I will.
because if you ask me to quit schooling for RC, I will.

I am expecting at least 20 points for L1R4.
yet i dont feel nervous or worried.

Hopeless.

2010-01-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

OA ITP was fun to the max!

we got to pitch tents, roast chicken, cook spaghetti.
it wasn't a training camp, so it wasn't really energy consuming.
really enjoyed myself and learnt many things.

No doubt, Red Cross provides many opportunities for us.
That's why my strong passion for RC has been burning since sec2.

I would really want to look forward to my future journey in RC.
But on the other hand, I still have some uncertainties.
Nothing to do with the rest, solely me and myself.

After OA ITP, we were told to choose our specialisation.
The girls chose evacuation, while Amir and I chose Footdrill.
How disappointing.
But i know that i cant expect them to take footdrill with me.

Had POP Committee meeting afterwards.
Was trying real hard to focus and not fall asleep.
The meeting lasted for 50 minutes or so, and the worst part came.

I saw it coming, what to do?
Blame me for being straight-forward, and having some eff attitude.

After POP Meeting, some of us left together.
they wanted to have dinner at Macs, but I decided not to join.
I swear that kind of feeling sucks.
Totally shag so I headed home alone.

I am thinking of whether to close my blog or to private it.
Don't see the point when I always blog something, and it offends people.
I mean like, everything is just a facade here.
Yet if I blog my true feelings, it's "irresponsible blogging".

Anyhow, 5 days more to consider.
But i think they don't need me.
Just another insignificant being.

2010-01-09T06:31:00.000+08:00

In 15 minutes, I'll be leaving home for OA ITP.

It's another 2D1N thing, again.

After OA ITP, there's POP Committee Meeting.

sighhh ~ thinking about negative(s) again.

I cant help but to think about the same issue.

This is so unfair.

But I know I can only blame myself for this.

It's either I do something, or do nothing.

Right now, I dont feel like doing anything.

Oh well.

Don't ask me why im so stubbon.

I dont know.

Time to say goodbye.

2010-01-08T21:12:00.001+08:00

And I cried for like an hour,
talking about having coloured hair,
and dropping out of ______.

I dont want to.
It's my passion, my everything.

What to do?

2010-01-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

Back from Ngee Ann Polytechnic openhouse.

It wasnt a wasted trip.
Because I realised I am not interested in Info Tech.

Now here's the problem.
I cant find a suitable course for myself.

The courses I want, are unachievable.
I know it myself, so don't tell me I can make it.
Because I know I cant, and no one else knows better.

OA ITP camp tmr.
Hope I can learn fast.
sighhh.

Admin work for now.
BYE!

2010-01-08T14:12:00.002+08:00

I need to blog responsibly.
"This is the World Wide Web, everyone reading."
blah blah blah, boringgg!

And thus, I cannot scold vulgarities.
Ohhh, how great. (being sarcastic, duh!)

Apparently, I am not allowed to have dyed hair.
EVG Alumni cca helpers must comply to school rules.
Dyed hair will influence sec5 students to dye their hair too.

The thing is, if you teachers cant stop them, that's your problem.
Please don't push the blame to people like me.
It only comes to show that you're not that capable of handling your students.

Notice that I said "not that capable" instead of some harsher words :D

Next, if EVG doesn't accept VIs or seniors with dyed hair, let me tell you what.
I'll just get myself posted to some other schools that wants me, and my commitment.
Im perfectly fine with that, alright.

Did I just typed all those with good language.
Yes I did, don't come knocking on my door with your discipline committee.
I am no longer your student.

And for those who don't know,
I got involved with discipline cases during sec3 for irresponsible blogging.

I scolded EXCOs, and was forced to delete it.
Spell A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.

Notice that I said "forced to delete it."

Now, I am no longer your student.
Don't ask me do this and that.

I know what to do, and this is solely my opinions.
Get it?

P/S: Teachers have dyed hair too, and students see teachers every weekdays?

2010-01-08T10:50:00.000+08:00

Hello whoever.
I guess I still feel sad about that incident.
Teach me how to move on, someone?

From today onwards, shall off lappy by 12midnight.
I need to adjust my sleeptime by a bit.
No point sleeping late and waking up late.

Will not be updating for 2 days.
Going CCA Recruitment, followed by OA ITP(1 night camp)

For now, going out to take passport photo.
I need to renew my passport and I am happy.
Because I can finally bid goodbye to that kid photo.

CIAOS.
My heart needs serious medication :l

2010-01-08T02:03:00.003+08:00

Know what?
Feeling damn depressed right now.

I thought I got over it.
I thought I could move on.
I was just lying to myself all these while.

I know you dont care anymore.
And I keep saying I dont too.
But deep down, I know I still do.

3 months ago, all this shit started.
We both knew the answer to it.
But I refuse to accept it, I dont know how to.

This really sucks.
And I wonder if you still remember this.

" 真聪明！
一定是喝了ENFA GROW 3+ 牛奶，
适合三岁以下的儿童! "

BYE.
Feeling damn depressed.

Ex-Bestfriend, I swear i freaking miss you.
But I know, you don't care about them anymore. At least not as much as I do.

2010-01-08T01:18:00.002+08:00

“No one ever said that life would be fair, or that the moments you wanted to last forever would. As you start to realize, people who once said that they cared can stop in an instant and those people who once made you the happiest, are now the ones who make you cry. You realize that no matter how much you care about someone, that it doesn’t mean they will care about you, and that letting go of something isn’t hard, it’s what you leave behind that’s the hard part. You realize that you can’t make someone love you and you’d be better off not falling in love in the first place. You realize that kisses don’t always mean something and promises can be broken, just as quickly as they are made.”

2010-01-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to someone.

someone special,
someone committed,
someone in GLORIOUS.

Happy birthday, Amir! (:

2010-01-07T14:13:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.
today is the day im free from everything!
so it's time for games, but YangTse not at home :(

anyhow, shall list out my schedule here.

- Amir's birthday(8th)
- OA ITP(9th to 10th)
- Boon Ping's birthday(11th)
- Receiving of O Level results(11th, 2pm)
- Trip to Simei ITE with Ching Yee(12th, 9am)
- Make school choices (by 15th)
- VIP 11/10 mass outing @ Marina Barrage(17th)
- Help out for RC Flag Day Preperations (20th, 10am to 6pm)
- POP Rehearsal(23th to 24th)
- Release of JAE postings(27th)
- POP Rehearsal, FD ITP, POP(29th to 30th)

see the dates, woohoo.
I wanted to help out for the flag day for 1 whole week.
but mummy sure angry at me, so yeah.

I think she is tired of hearing me say, "Im going campsite."
what to do, but i like what im doing ((:

2010-01-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

Feels great to be home.

But yet, I am feeling super demoralized.

I really hate what is happening now.

I dont see the point, really.

I feel like giving up.

THEY dont care, and i know it.

I guess only some know who im referring to.

I feel like spelling each and every single name out.

But i know what I should, and should not do.

This is just so fucked up.

And I am losing my respect for him too.

Guess what, I dont feel part of VIP 11/10.

This is how i feel, deep down in my heart.

And now, I am feeling super down.

I just cried typing a text.

Stupid!

[EDITED]

You don't judge people just because you fucking passed.

You don't go around asking why he/she passed just because

you think they don't deserve to.

I can tell you, you are not as good as you think you are.

SO, STOP HAVING THE "IM SO GOOD" MENTALITY.

And really sorry if this post hurts those who almost made it.

To A brother, cheer up.

I want to see you attending 12/11 kay (:

2010-01-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yawns.

Im not tired, just bored.
because the long bus ride is killing me.
but did i mention how much i love taking 168?
haha, i dont know but i just love red cross so much.

anyway, im STILL on the bus ride home.
using lappy to kill time, like duh.

will take a quick shower when i get home.
then start doing minutes for today's meeting.
it's been ages since i did my last minutes, say 1 year?
hope i dont screw up, really.

okay, shall end here for now.
I am finally seeing Woodlands (:

2010-01-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

Bravo outing was cancelled, many people couldnt make it.
And sadly, im one of them.
Had to meet the POP Committee at Campsite.

This speaks for my update.
I am leaving home now, to get my butt there.
Urgh! Busy life, but nvrmind.

Anyhow, bringing my lappy there.
Might online MSN at the campsite.
Since I got portable USB Modem, why not.

HAHA.
Bye for now (:

2010-01-06T13:38:00.001+08:00

GCE O-Level results out on Monday,
Jan 11 at 2pm.

JAE postings to be released on Jan 27.

2010-01-06T01:35:00.003+08:00

Support L.O.S instead of L.O.L ~
Why use Laugh-Out-Loud when you're actually not.

Start using Laugh-Out-Silently(LOS) today! :D

[EDIT]

"LOL" only available from 0800hrs to 2000hrs.
"LOS" available for 24/7.

Which is better, you choose.
P/S: "LOL" may cause disturbance to neighbours at night. Be considerate! (:

2010-01-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

"boredddd!", the girl cries.

okay, that was totally random! ((:
on phone with Royston now, settling some stuff.

he made me angry! that @#$%!&?^
LOL, just kidding.

im kinda high now, BECAUSE ~
I ate a piece of chocolate that contains 26% alcoholic contents!

cheyy, no lah.
i ate one, but im high because im MEEE!
LOL, bullshit.

Redundant post.
Goodnight <3

2010-01-05T19:25:00.001+08:00

when i say i miss school,
i mean my friends and the fun.

not the school